It is Friday, and it is 6 a.m. I slept on my tiny love seat last night, and my teeth, which feel like mossy trees, have not been brushed in 24 hours. How did I get here? I don’t know.
I am in a slump. I am working too hard and producing too little. My album, which is totally recorded and sounding great, is in purgatory while I procrastinate on the art work.
Fortunately, I have written some new song ideas and recorded them on my iPhone, which provide a glimmer of hope to my descending attitude.
This is all a result of business being good, or so I tell myself. My website design company has been getting most of my attention recently, which is great for my clients but bad for me. I have been producing some awesome websites, but my art and my soul have been victimized by this pursuit.
Part of the problem with owning a company like mine and freelancing is that the work comes in spurts, making it difficult to find a rhythm. Rhythm is a necessary part of the human condition. We need to get into a groove in order to balance love, life, marriage, kids, art, music, basketball, cats, food, etc. It is hard to establish a rhythm when I am expected to work different hours each and every day, depending on the needs of the clients.
Sometimes I have meetings all day, which means I have to work all night. Sometimes I work all day on website stuff. It is the lack of a solid 9-5 schedule that gets me off my rhythm.
We all need the beat of a solid drummer to help us make sense of the world.
By the way, despite my lack of a routine, I have managed to plough forward in the hopes of straightening it all out. My band will be performing at the Acadia Cafe on Friday, March 5th at 11 p.m. We will be sharing the bill with Talking Tree, Son of a Gun, and Charlie Van Stee Trio. It is free to get in. Will you be there?